I want less

I have said it before, but oddly enough, I am getting to take on more before I can get to less.

That contradiction is an odd situation to be in. I also think that I am lying to myself.

The path to less and simpler does not have to be a forced passage through a lot more before getting to the promise land.

I think that if I was disciplined, I would have seen this and planned properly to make sure I was removing as much as possible before starting and adding more. This is a contradiction that I could have worked on before. Now that I am in the middle of this, I can pause and reflect on what I could do to remove what is not needed. I think that it is necessary so that I can feel that I am improving and trying to be disciplined.

I am looking at taking some shortcuts to feel better and get myself more into the groove of getting rid of things and tasks. I can’t slow myself down because I would like the approach to be perfect. I think that it is better for me to get things moving to get momentum.

I realized that there is an interim state before the end goal and I will need to plan accordingly to not give my future self more work. I need to write it down so I don’t lose track of the interim state and the end goal.

I am often hard on myself for being lazy and not having everything that I think about completed much sooner. I am not good at evaluating the effort required to get most tasks done, and I am not good at evaluating how much maintenance time is needed for everything we have. This adds up, and this means that I have to be more patient with myself for not getting to the destination as fast as I dream it.

Discipline and patience.